Its funny how things have a way of propagating. Its funny how one little thought, one little hunch really does carry over and become the actual situation.

Damn, I guess I fail.

I'm so hungry right now. I think this is why sleep isn't coming. Its probably also the coffee. And everything else that's happened this past weekend.

I figure I could go on like this. I guess its not a bad thing. But I know changes have to be made. And I need to figure out whether this is all worth it. I'm really not sure. I'm not sure whether I had it in me or whether this has been another half-assed effort. I'd like to think I put everything I had into this, but I know that's not true.

I didn't play up to my potential. I didn't sell out and completely throw myself out there. Consider this a lesson learned then. Consider this something that won't be happening again. Consider this something that's been happening repeatedly over the past couple years. The inability to pull the trigger and make the decisions I need to make.

I guess I just pull the trigger too late. And that's my problem. Its not the inability to choose, but the inability to make a decision in time.

Its all about timing I suppose. As I've been saying for the past couple months. And this time around, I guess its true.